So many thoughts...

For each day that passes that I stay pregnant, is a huge blessing. It hasn't quite sunk in yet that we are pregnant again, but I'm excited. I ate my first pickle today! :) It was good, but not heavenly like I remember pickles tasting when I was pregnant with Mackenzie. The tiredness has set it. It's now 3pm and I can barely keep my eyes open. No time to rest though, I have 3 other babies to take care of!
I just found out my cousin Amanda is pregnant with her 2nd baby. She is due Oct. 2.

I'm thinking PINK by the way...not sure why I'm thinking this, but I think it's a girl.

Here we go Again!

It's Feb. 2nd...we are pregnant.

I don't feel any different! I hope to stay pregnant this time. Time will tell...

Good news to come...maybe

I never posted again, b/c the day after I put that last post up, we lost the baby. I'm not sure what it is with my body, but that was #3 for us. It's crazy to think I've been pregnant 6 times, but only have 3 kiddos. I was a little disappointed, but didn't share too many tears. After leaving the dr's office, I had my cry fest for about 2 minutes, and then I was ok. I couldn't help but think that Heavenly Father has blessed up with 3 perfect, beautiful, healthy kids, and that is a huge blessing. There are so many people out there that would love to just have one baby and they can't. My time will again soon. I took a pregnancy test this morning and I *think* I saw a faint positive. It could be my eyes playing tricks on me though. I tend to take the test apart, hold it up to the light, and stare at it forever. I have a test taking obsession. Thank goodness for dollar tree tests!

Is The Secret Out Yet?

Ok...so...we are pregnant! AGAIN :-)

Let me start from the beginning and pour out my thoughts. When I had Mackenzie via c-section I just knew that she was our last baby. She had to be. I could not go through that much pain again. It hurt to walk, it hurt to sit, it hurt to hold her at times. I needed help for everything; to sit up, to get up from a sitting position, to roll over in bed, to bend down, I think you get the idea. That pain..well, it can last up to 2 months. After about 2 months though, you slowly forget that pain. Your muscles heal, they get stronger. Your pre-pregnancy body SLOWLY begins to emerge. Seeing and holding and smelling and cuddling those sweet babies help those bad memories of child labor disappear.

When Mackenzie turned about 6 months, I got the baby fever. It came out of no where! I kept telling myself to forget the yearnings to have another baby. I kept telling myself that Mackenzie was STILL a baby, there was no way I could manage a 4th. Two months later, those "baby wanting feelings" were just more than I could bare. So what did I do...I prayed. I'm not really sure I got my answer until I took that pregnancy test. LOL
Luke and I talked about having another baby a few times and we decided that we definitely wanted a 4th, but just not sure when we would make that decision.

Ammon is almost 6, Hailey is 4, and Mackenzie is now 9 months old. Ammon and Hailey are in school all day and it's just me and Mackenzie at home during the day. It's nice, but quite. My first thought was "Mackenzie needs a playmate". That's what it was like with Ammon and Hailey. They are only 21 months apart and they always had a playmate. There were days when it was hard..oh yes, there were days when I was that stressed out mom that just needed a break!!! I remember being TIRED and I remember feeling lucky if I got to get a shower that day!

So as far as getting this new baby here...it wasn't really planned at all. We figured we would try for another baby when Mackenzie was 1. That sounds perfect...right?

Well after a week of being just plain exhausted and almost feeling like I was going to pass out at the pumpkin patch, Luke tells me, "You are so pregnant". I told him he was crazy, there is no possible way I could be pregnant. Then I took a test the next day...it turns out, he was right.

Then, like a tidal wave, it hits me. Am I ready for a 4th baby?! Mackenzie is STILL a baby! Mackenzie doesn't even sleep through the night yet! Do I have enough patience?! I'll have two in diapers again! I need a double stroller and a bigger diaper bag! Am I crazy? !

There is no turning back now! LOL This sweet peanut is on it's way. I know this baby is a sweet blessing. I hope to enjoy each day of being pregnant, because it will be the last time I'm pregnant.

My current due date is July 2, 2011. I'm almost 6 weeks pregnant. It's still very early on, so I'm cautiously excited. When/if I get to 8 or 9 weeks, I think I'll be good to go. I don't have morning sickness or food adversions yet. I'm extremely tired though and that is a good sign.

Did I mention we are hoping a boy? But a sweet little girl would be nice too! More to come later....